Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Kawaii Kiki's First Giveaway

Hello all~
I feel like I should be blogging, but I'm still recovering from my bad mood, so I'm deciding not to for a bit.  At the very least, I've managed to pinpoint why I'm feeling so down, now I just have to figure out how to make it better.  That's the time consuming part, lol.

Anyway, there's a blog out there that I just keep coming across during my research into the Hime field.  I mean, seriously, I don't know how many times I've come across her blog just looking for something related.

Turns out, she's having her first giveaway!
And even though I'm not entering myself (I don't apply for big giveaways anymore, ever since last winter I tried for 5 and never came close, lol), I still wanted to spread the word, since she's not only got some nice things, but she's pretty nice herself!

What she's giving away:
- A sheet of decoden rhinestones appliques
- Under eye mask
- Double lid eyelid glue (also good for putting on lashes)
- A pair of Forever 21 lashes
- Forever 21 leopard print makeup pouch
- A set of 3 pink gem bracelets from Forever 21
- A couple of Iwako erasers
- Hello Kitty tissues
- Chocolate flavored lipgloss (in a cupcake shaped container)
- Her own brand of leopard print hair bows
- A pair of plano Geo Princess Mimi Apple Green lenses

Her contest ends June 3rd, and she'll be picking the winner the day after.  You can go here for more details.
And while you're at it, read the rest of her blog!

But besides that, I've realized recently I still need to put up a review for Pretty & Cute as well as on the products I've gotten.  Hopefully, my grandma's vacation will be over today so I can take proper pictures in the sun on how my BB Cream looks.  I think I've tested everything for long enough.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

When You Give A Girl A Glue Gun....


I'm feeling pretty good right now, much better than the first half of this month.

I bought a new cereal, some Fiber-One.  I didn't get it for the fiber, but it said it was caramel flavor, lol.  It's delicious!  Tastes just like cereal with caramel drizzled on it~~  Makes me look forward to waking up in the morning!  Well, more than all of the lovely bright sunshine, that is.

Also, tomorrow, I'm hanging out with Tara, and I'm taking her somewhere new.  We're going to the Oak Brook Mall (a giant outdoor mall) to walk around and get some exercise, what with the wonderful weather we've been blessed with....  Well, mostly, when it's not raining, it's really nice!  It's supposed to be clear and in the 50's tomorrow, good walking weather!  I just wish I had some cute walking shoes!  All I have are my ugly gym shoes.  Ah well.

But what really got my mood up was that I finally got to make something I've been wanting to make for some months now.  A replica of BtSSB's floral headband.

I had to take some liberties, since of course I don't have all of the supplies they do.  And I wish I had shifted everything over a little more before gluing.  Still, it came out much better than I expected!  Do you want to see?

Monday, April 18, 2011

Having a Bad Day

You know, I like my blog.
Even if everyone just stopped reading today, I'd still like it.

I don't have anyone I can talk to about my problems.  Unlike me, my friends are usually all too busy with jobs, boyfriends, and general happenings, and unfortunately with the way I grew up, I'm too gun-shy to talk to my family, since when I would try to tell them my problems, I usually got met with "you're being over-dramatic" when they don't realize how much of my emotions I keep bottled up.  (not healthy, I know, but I used to get in a lot of trouble for getting angry, so I learned to keep it all in so I wouldn't get in trouble anymore.)

But here, I can talk about whatever ails me, whether it's a bad day, a bad experience, or even just PMSing, lol.  It's a good way to learn how to deal with things alone, because even if I do meet another "Jerry" to come and help me up when things get down, I may not have access to that person.  I don't want to be a burden and have to rely on others forever.

Of course, no one wants to read a bunch of posts about people being sad.  For a while, you might think, maybe I can cheer them up.  Eventually, you start to believe they're only doing it for attention, and that maybe if they just actively tried to make themselves happy, they would be.

I don't want this to be a "Poor Tiffany, give her lots of lovessss!" post.  It'll just be... evidence.
Everyone has bad days, bad weeks, even bad months and years.  Some of us can shrug it off and power through.  Some of us add them to a huge pile of unhappy moments, and let it weigh us down.  I am a latter, slowly making my way to the former.  I find that writing my problems helps, because then I can think everything through completely, and nothing is kept inside.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

May's Ageha

Do you like the smokey look for eyes?

Look no further than May's Ageha, lol!
Yes, it's already out for download (though we won't be getting it in my state until May).

Anyway, there are a ton of pages on the smokey eye look.  I definitely don't mind, I like it most.  It's why I always gravitate to Sakurina's makeup.

As for the fashions....
They're not bad, but nothing extra spectacular.  This issue, they seem to be catering to everyone.  A lot of tame stuff.  You'll have no problem bringing this issue in and finding every coordinate at a Forever 21, lol.   Still, I was pretty disappointed, because when I saw Himena's previews, I was really hoping the floral theme would continue a little more.

Don't expect anything groundbreaking in the field of hairstyles either.   It's more or less of the same thing: curly hair that's down, or curly hair that's in a ponytail.

All in all, not a very special issue, but I'm really grateful for the smokey eye makeup all over the place.  I have more references to go by

Well anyway, here are a few pages/images from this issue.  I got it from Tokyo Jam.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

1st Public Eye Makeup Attempt!

Well, here it is!

I didn't think it was very successful this time, but I didn't want to lie about posting it today....  It's still 11p here, so I'm good!

This is my first public posting of my eye makeup attempt.

Some minor notes:
-I'm still really scared of putting in my contacts again, lol....
-I am wearing bottom lashes, but they aren't as dramatic as the top lashes.  Have to save up for some Diamond Lashes soon.
-Also, my eyeliner is really terrible.  Don't buy Elf liquid liner.  It comes out nice and thick, but it doesn't stick to skin well, so while the glue for my lashes is great (I've tested it on its own, seems to last quite a while and is easily removed), it'll stick to the liner and come right off, taking the liner with it.  That's what you see on my bottom lash.  I wanted to fix it, but when I started taking it off, the liner went with it!  I just gave up.
-I didn't curl my actual lashes.  Didn't even think to....  I'll try to remember next time!

Err, please be gentle!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Finding Ways to Say I'm Not Sorry

It's been some time since I've gotten to really rant.
I'm not looking for any sympathy, I just really want to get it all out, or else it'll haunt my thoughts and I won't be able to sleep at all.

I live with my grandmother.  I have for some time.  I'm kind of in charge of taking care of her.  She needs me all the time, and while it's good to take care of the elders in your family, I wish I wasn't the only one....

Sunday, I went out to get my car fixed up.  It was 83°F outside, so I decided to wear my shorts, but I hadn't shaved in a bit, so I put on one of my lace stockings under them.  My floral ones.  I like them.  They're comfy and elegant.
At least, I thought so.

My grandmother saw me when I came home.  She made a joke about them.  She likes to sound cute about things.  I just rolled my eyes and went to my room to get changed back into my pajamas.

Tonight, my grandmother decided to talk to me about them.  I was hurt when the word "trashy" popped up, but I was livid when she assumed I was doing it for a man's attention.  The conversation ended with "Do you think a Christian woman like yourself should be conducting yourself in such a manner, dressed like a... prostitute?" before I had to step in.

It was only the stockings, mind you.  Had I just worn the shorts on their own, it would have been alright.

We've been getting along for the past few weeks.  Not amazing, but certainly better than before.
But tonight just reminds me that, no, she will never accept me, no matter what I do, because I'm not doing what she wishes I would.

You're supposed to listen to the elders.  They know better.
But what do you do when what they say goes against who you are?  What do you do when you completely disagree?

We are complete opposites when it comes to personalities.  It's obvious we will clash as long as we live together.  It doesn't help that I like being alone and am constantly protecting my personal space.

I know I've said it before, that she will never accept me.  But it doesn't make the pain any less every time I realize how evident it is.

I could just go with whatever she says, but that would only cause me stress.  After all, a large part of my stress stems from many years of suppressing who I was and what I really wanted out of life.
I'm already fighting with her over my path, and that's clearly not working.

What do I do?  Until I find a decent paying job, I'm stuck here, ever alert to moments just like this, keeping everything I am and everything I do guarded from her prying eyes, because I know she'll only make a negative comment about it.  The more this happens, the more I'm starting to think that should I ever leave, that I will have no choice but to push her from my life.  We will never see eye to eye, because we are both stubborn over our beliefs, me because I've done, and am still doing research and am discovering the flaws in the things I grew up with, her because they are deep-seeded and they have been done for centuries before her and are therefore absolute.

It's a battle of old-fashioned vs. new-fashioned.  She feels she's got to "save" me from destruction when I'm only paving a new trail.

It was only recently that I decided to finally be myself and that I wasn't doing anything evil or wrong for doing things in a new way.  So how do I deal with someone who seems to think I am, or am at least really close to it?  How do I make her see that while I may look naive and young, I've experienced so much more than she could ever imagine?  Is there a way to preserve my way of life while satisfying what she wants to see in me?  Or is this a losing battle and should I just abandon ship and forge my own way regardless of what she wants?  Even when she acknowledges that I'm an adult and can do what I want, I know she'll only make comments as long as I do it, to me and to others.  She actually wanted to have me wear that ensemble again, just so she could go around asking others if they thought I looked trashy.

*sigh*  We may forever clash in life, but she's still family, and family is very important to me.  But still, every time she opens her mouth, I cringe at her narrow-mindedness.  I wonder what she would do if she found out that I almost lost my faith because of her personal beliefs.

No, I know this is a losing battle.  I guess I don't really need answers to these questions.
I'll just have to keep forging ahead, reminding myself that I'm not a bad person for being myself.  It's just really sad that I will have to forever put her in the group of people who won't accept me because of who I am.  A random stranger is easy to ignore.  Family is not.  I just wish there was a way I could tell her to keep her opinions to herself from now on.

Well, this was a load off of my mind, because these are things I've been thinking about for a while.  I have no one to talk to about this personally anymore, so I guess it just builds up.  The one weakness of being a lone goat, lol.

So things aren't too heavy in this entry, I think I will post up an eye makeup attempt tomorrow/later today, if she's not at home again.  I finally got it to look really good last Friday, and I think I can recreate it.  I'll need to get opinions of it eventually!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Yumetenbo Catering to Larger Feet?

I love Yumetenbo, lol.
I think this is obvious to everyone.

Recently, I've been noticing some things over time.

For a while now, Yumetenbo has released larger clothing.  It's not common, but it's not impossible to find clothing from them for larger sizes.

But yesterday, while perusing their shoe selection, I noticed some of their shoes are available in larger sizes.

Mind you, nothing too huge, but I've seen one type go up to 9.5US!

Pumps that are almost sold out
Cute summery shoes
Some sandal type shoes

These are just some that I came across, but I didn't even look at all of their new shoes.  I didn't see any of the older shoes offering this though.
Since there are so few, I'm guessing this is a trial run to see if there's any interest.  I doubt they made too many pair of these larger sizes either.  Still, this is pretty cool!

Only last year did they open the doors to the rest of the world, so I wonder if they're trying to broaden their base.  They're already easier to get out of the country than their competition, they've got good prices, and they offer clothing for those girls out there with bigger chests and bigger hips.  Maybe since they went international, they started getting a large amount of overseas customers?  What do you think?

I hope these new sizes are well received.  I'd like to see even more people able to enjoy their products!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

20 Random Facts

Today, I just read the lovely ManaStarre's entry on her 20 random facts.

Since I don't have much happening in my life as of late, and also, maybe this will occupy enough of my mind so I can ignore the cramps I'm currently having until the aspirin kicks in (a necessary evil, if we didn't have them, us women would become far too powerful and definitely take over the world, lol!), I'll do one myself.

Friday, April 1, 2011

...Or Hardly Working?

Ahaha, no, I'm working hard!

Today marks the end of my 3rd week since I got serious about my full switch to the Hime lifestyle.

But I feel like I'm not making any progress, lol.  I'm still making too many mistakes.

Like, I never seem to put on enough eyeliner, so you see the gap of skin color between real and fake eyelashes.  I'm not trying to be stingy, but I have no idea where to stop!   I'm too worried I'm putting on way too much....  And I'm too shaky in application.  I guess from a distance it doesn't matter, and even the best out there don't do it perfectly smooth, but the perfectionist in me says it definitely does matter, and if I walk out of the house like that, everyone will notice....
And for that matter, I never seem to put on enough glue on my eyelashes.  I keep thinking, surely this *extremely thin* layer will do it!  And then it starts peeling at the edges....

I got some wigs in a week ago.  One style I didn't like, and neither color was good for my skin.  Too gold toned....
And the heated curlers I got are too subtle.  My hair only responds to high heat.  I envy girls who can just put their hair in curlers for an hour, and then just walk out the door with perfect curls, lol.  Although I guess that would come with its own set of problems though.