Friday, December 7, 2012

Building a Wardrobe

Hello all~

Sorry I've been away these days.  I've been working on a new layout for this blog, and I wanted to come back when it was finished, but it's taking longer than I hoped.  But I really felt like posting, so I guess the big reveal will happen later!

Guys, I've been feeling a little down lately.
It feels like everyone and their dog is buying a thousand-some pieces for their Gyaru wardrobe and leaving me in the dust.

Due to a new monetary obligation and my own inability to save money, I haven't touched my clothing wishlist.   Sure, I still look at all the pretty clothing as they come and go on Yumetenbo and mbok, but I always feel so guilty for not jumping on them when I could have.  I've missed out on so many things, so I feel like a bad Hime because I'm not making much progress when it feels like it's so easy for everyone else....

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Metal X Hostess Style??

Hello all~

Have you ever heard of the band Aldious?

Friday, October 12, 2012

Quarterlife Crisis

I'm having one!

As I mentioned in my last post, I've recently had the strongest desire to just change everything.  Well, mostly everything.  I'm still liking Hime-kei so far, lol.

Thursday after work, I had the sudden urge to go to Barnes and Noble.   I have no idea what made me want to go, just that I was in the area while running an errand, and could really have used a book, I guess.  So I headed on over.

My usually hang-outs are in the How To Draw section and the Personal Health sections, where I usually check out the books they have about skin care and makeup.   I read a very interesting book about makeup that doesn't just talk about how to apply the makeup but some tips on how to work on your own self-esteem.  Much of it, I already knew, but it was good to have it reiterated as lately I've been slacking on positive thinking.   It was pretty nice, though I didn't feel the need to buy it.  Maybe some other time, as it did have a very interesting section on wearing makeup depending on the mood you want to portray, and I wonder if it can help me even in my own style.

Anyway, as I was making my way to the art section, I passed the Self Help section.  I'm usually always trying to solve problems myself, since I don't really feel like my friends can be of help with the things I'm dealing with, and I'm never sure how to express what I mean to my mom so I don't feel like she understands where I am.   It's really difficult, because you only know what you know.  I can come to all sorts of conclusions, but in the end, I'm only relying on my own opinions as to why things happen the way they do, and even if what I'm thinking is solid, there's so many other opinions and ideas that can change the situation completely.  So I figured, it might be nice to see if there's a book about the issues I'm dealing with that might give me a new insight.  What caught my eye was a book called The Go-Girl Guide, which deals with the issues that come up once you're in your 20s.  It's over a decade old (and you can tell, because they mention stuff like "Ally McBeal", lol), but the information is still quite helpful.  Did you know that we usually have one more growth spurt in our mid-twenties?  It's probably why my skin has been breaking out more than ever lately, like I'm going through puberty again (or it could just be stress).

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Eventually Fixed with Time

Hello everybody~

So, it didn't work out with that guy....

At first, I was really down, because I'm so picky, so it's near impossible for me to even get attracted to guys that don't meet my standards.  Not many people can even catch my attention, let alone keep it.

So when it all fell apart, I was sitting there, wondering why I went through all of that for nothing, but more importantly, why he went with it for as long as he did!  I really don't like rejection.  In fact, it really terrifies me, because I'm afraid of failure.  This is the sole reason why I'm a perfectionist.  I felt like it was my fault that it ended, but what was worse was that I couldn't do anything to fix it.  I started thinking selfish things like how I'll never find anyone who could fall for someone like me, and I tried to convince myself that I should just forget about the idea of love and only focus on achieving my goals and working, since having a boyfriend would just distract me and cause me lots of trouble.  I took the failure pretty hard....

But once I stopped thinking with my bruised ego and started thinking with my heart, I thought about... well, everything.  It set me on some serious introspection.  Not just about why it's so difficult for me to like a guy, let alone why it feels like no one around my age seems interested in me (which probably isn't true), but on my personality, my goals, where I want to be compared to where I am, and the like.  It's been a roller coaster of emotions!  I've learned a lot of hard lessons, and I wish sometimes I didn't have to go through such things just to learn them.  I've been feeling unsatisfied with my life.  It seems my fashion choice was only the tip of the iceberg.  I still feel like I'm missing a lot more and that my current personal goals aren't enough to cover it all.

Unfortunately, I'm not really sure what I'm missing, and it annoys me that I can't figure it out.  I just have a restless feeling that urges me to do something, anything.  Travel somewhere new or do something I wouldn't normally do, make some friends I may not have seen myself with in previous years, stuff like that.

Who would have thought getting dumped would created such an interesting chain effect, lol.

Anyway, I hope no one will badmouth him.  He really did have a good reason to break it off, but ultimately, I don't think he felt I was the one for him, and at the same time, I've since realized he wasn't the one for me either.  I have my own reasons as to how I've come to this conclusion, but it doesn't matter.  I've learned some things about myself from the experience, and I at least enjoyed myself while it lasted.  It's been 6 years since I was in any kind of relationship with a guy until him, so at the very least, I can reset the counter.  He's a great person, and I really hope things work out for him.

I just wanted to talk about that, because I know some people were supporting me.  Thank you so much.
I'm okay, I just have a lot to think about now.  It is annoying, though.  It's like that really bad sore feeling you get after you exercise for the first time, except you can't ease it with a warm bath, and you wish you had started all of this forever ago, because then you would be further along and you wouldn't have to deal with it anymore....  I don't know....

Anyone entering the Kawaii International Hime-kei contest?  I considered it, until I found out great Hime-Gyarus like Mio and Black-Sui were entering.  I just can't compare to greats like those at my current level, lol, so I decided to sit out.  I have far too much improvement needed before I can even think of going up against the likes of girls like them.  It did inspire me to start determining where I need more work though.  I finally got some makeup, though not the wishlist stuff I originally thought of getting (I kept having second thoughts of spending so much at once, lol).  I *finally* have a neutral palette that not only looks good with my skin tone, but shows off its color amazingly.  I got a really nice, easy to follow tutorial in September's Ageha that I've been practicing.  I need new bottom lashes, but otherwise, it's been going well.  I think I'll start practicing contouring some as well.  I'm making a checklist of what I feel I need in order to be the great Hime I see in my mind.  I'm only at, like, 3%, so I need to see what I need to work on and what I'm lacking.

I have *so much* to work on....  I need to make another list of things I need to tackle, so I can focus on one thing at a time!

Friday, August 31, 2012

These Days

Hello, hello~

Sorry I've been away for a bit, for you see, I've been dating as of late~

Yep, this beginner princess has spotted a potential prince!   I won't say much on the matter, as it's still a new relationship and we're still learning about each other.  But I will say this: he's really cool, lol.

Anyway, I've pushed back my plans yet again, and though I was meant to buy makeup this month, because of a few extra expenses, I didn't want to risk dipping below my minimum.   I decided I'll go with my next paycheck, since I have to go down to Mitsuwa for the next Ageha anyway.  Then again, winter clothing has been coming out these days, and they're sooooo cuuuuute~!   I really don't know what to do, lol.  I wish I could just get a nice basis down, so when new stuff comes out, it's less 'frantic rush to buy because I don't have any cute stuff for the season' and more 'just add it in as it goes'.

I've gone back into looking for a new job.  I still have mine, and it's still okay, but that's just it, it's only 'okay'.  I still want to try for a receptionist position.   Fortunately, I have the ability to go at my leisure, since I'm not in a mad rush or anything.  A lot of really nice openings have popped up, so I'm thinking now is the time to strike.  Even if I just get part time, that can help in getting the experience I need to one day go full time.

I got my Japanese books Saturday, and I have to say, they're doing quite well!   For one, I finally understand what "wa" does in a sentence, lol. I've learned a few kanji as well.  I haven't been able to do a lesson per day, as I've been pretty busy (which is so rare), but I'm not tired of it yet, so that's good.  I think I'll be getting the next two Japanese From Zero books soon, so when I'm finished with this book, I can just go to the next (and shipping is free if you spend over $25, I believe).

Overall, these days have been really good and full of activity.  I just wanted to update you all about where I've been for the past couple of weeks, lol.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Liebster Blog Award!/Learning Japanese?

In my last entry, I told you that I got an award from Wanda, AKA Lavenrose of Lavender and Roses.  So, let's not waste time, here is my response to the questions asked, as well as 11 things about myself!

I guess here are the rules:
1. Each person must post 11 things about themselves.
2. Answer the questions the tagger has set for you, plus create 11 questions for the people you've tagged to answer.
3. Choose 11 people and link them in your post.
4. Go to their page and tell them.
5. Remember, no tags back!

So, to start, here are the 11 things about myself:

Friday, August 3, 2012

Living the Dream, Step by Step

Hello all~!

Did you see Kawaii International?  I loved it!
It didn't have as much Ayano as I would have wished (I would have loved for them to go in depth in the workings behind La Pafait, and from their poll, it seems I wasn't alone), but that behind the scenes look at the clothing store Rienda and what Mika has to do when she comes in was so interesting.  They really have amazing work ethics over there, it's so cool~ (lol, is it strange that I was focused on her job rather than her style?  Her outfit was cute, too!)  If the clothing stores around here were as cool as that, I think I'd try to work at a clothing store again.  But I digress, I can't wait until the next episode!

I recently beat Psychonauts for the first time and got 100% on it, too.   The ending was really satisfying, though the final boss was pretty easy.  Then again, getting up to the boss was where the trouble was, lol.

For the past few days, I've been sewing.   Not sewing for myself, but actually sewing an outfit for one of my ball joint dolls!  Last year, I designed this Christmas themed outfit for my tiny Hajnal, and I managed to make a working pattern for a pair of high waist pumpkin pants with actual working pockets, but I stopped working on it when I got depressed and lost my motivation.   I got back into it last week, and recently finished the main pattern for her top!  I'm so proud of myself~  I can't stop looking at my craftsmanship.   I don't have much to work on now, just her fur trimmed capelet with detachable fur bow collar, her fur cuffs, and her leggings which will probably be the easiest, as I can just pin the fabric onto her and sew.  This year, I want to try to finish it before Christmas.  Would anyone be interested in seeing a few photos of it?  It's only in the muslin phase and I haven't used any actual fabric because I'm still testing to see everything, but I did just finish her face-up too.

Lately, I've been getting into aloe drinks, or more specifically, a drink called Alo.  I found them at a nearby store, and the bottle looked so pretty, I decided to try one, specifically the one with mango and mangosteen.  It was soooo good!   But more surprisingly, it had little aloe bits floating inside of it!  It's kind of weird, when you're drinking it, and suddenly, a huge piece of pulp comes at you, but the texture is kind of cool.  It's like Jello, but... crunchy?  It's hard to explain, lol.  It's also been amazing at helping my skin heal!  I broke out pretty terribly some months ago, and I ended up with a lot of scars that stuck around for months, but the drink helped heal them right up, and lightened them too.  That's good, because I've been lazy about doing the apple cider mask, lol.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Prisila Demonstration and Easy Hime Hair Tutorial!

Hello all~~

Ahh, it feels good to be back for real now.   I learned a lot about myself during that soul searching, so I guess it was good that I left, but I hope I won't have to go on hiatus like that anytime soon!  I missed you all!

Anyway, during my time away, I began collecting a few things to start my Hime wardrobe, and one of the main things I absolutely needed was hair pieces.

I realized that I prefer to go the Jesus Diamante/La Pafait girls route.  Though I've got plenty of hair, I just don't want to damage it with all the teasing and curling and whatnot (I probably damage it enough straightening it every other week anyway).   It took me a really long time to get it to be as healthy as it is today, and I don't want to ruin it!  Besides, it gives me the option to go different colors on a whim.  But I think my biggest reason is that this is waaaaaay easier, lol.

So anyway!
I decided to order some Prisila hairpieces from Moery back in April!   I originally came across them while searching for a place that ships these wigs overseas a couple years back, and later Blackkoi did a review of their services, so I knew they were legitimate.  Sure enough, my experience of it was fantastic, though a little strange, lol.  It took a few days for them to confirm my payment, then two days later, I received it without even getting the tracking number!  All in all, it took a week from ordering to receive them.  Make sure you keep up with your bank though.   This was the very first order in which my bank was flagged.  Man, all those hundreds of dollars spent in China, Korea, and Japan, and this was the store that freaked them out....

Saturday, July 14, 2012

I'm Back~!

Hey everyone!!  I'm finally back again!! 

First things first, I really want to thank everyone who stayed with me during my absence and those who added me even afterward.   And a very special thanks to those who left such wonderful comments.   When I started to become a Hime-Gyaru, no one was really talking about Hime-kei.  I figured because I was so clueless about where to start researching the style, that maybe someone else out there was just as lost as me, and I thought I could document my findings and make it a little more accessible for those starting out just like me.  Nowadays, it seems like more and more Himes are popping up (or maybe it's because I'm part of it that I'm noticing it more, lol), that I started to think that there's no way I could be helpful anymore, when there's so many inspirational people to choose from.  But I've been proven wrong.  Thank you so much for those kind words of encouragement.  You have no idea how much they mean to me.  I'm truly glad that I could be even a little helpful to anyone, and I wish you all luck in being the princesses (or princes!) you wish to be.