Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Still Alive

Have you all been doing okay?

I miss blogging like crazy.  I mean, I really miss it.
But , I still haven't accomplished the goal I set out to, which was to find a new job.

Things got pretty low for me.  I'm the unfortunate type to place her self-worth on her status in the world.  For a while, I felt like I was nothing, since I wasn't contributing anything.  I stopped seeing my friends.  I stopped doing much of anything, really.  I had to force myself to eat on a normal basis, because I pretty much lost my appetite entirely.  I only left my room when I had to.

I still feel pretty down about my situation, but I've got no choice but to keep trying anyway.  Nothing will change if I just give up, after all.

In the meantime, I've never taken my eyes off of the Gyaru style.  I still love Hime-kei as much as I did before (which was a lot, lol), and I'm still interested in branching to Rokku-kei as well.  I've also started looking at the sweet styles that Satomi and Okarie are known for, as I would also like a style that I can wear on a daily basis at a future job.  I've found lots of new websites I hope to buy from, like Rojita and Ank Rouge.  I think my clothing coordinate skills have improved greatly, as I can see the potential in many pieces of clothing that I formerly could only see in the way it was displayed.  I haven't done much in the way of Gyaru makeup (especially since I have no reason to wear it if I'm not wearing anything fashionable), but I've found a good way to do nude makeup and can even do it in 20 minutes, when formerly, it would have taken me an hour.  I think I've gotten the hang of contouring, though I won't know until I come back and can show others.  And ultimately, I've realized that I don't care whether it's wild or tame, the old style or the new, I just really like the Gyaru style in general.  I hope I can return soon, so I can work on my style and learn from others.  It's not nearly enough to say I've probably gotten better.  I want to show you.

Until then, I will continue to look for a job and I will continue my hiatus here, as much as I really wish I could return.  My goal for this blog was to be a personal and a fashion blog, however.  I'm missing one of those things.

I really want to thank everyone who is sticking around, even though I'm not here.  I did read everyone's comments to my previous post, and I truly appreciate the well wishings that were sent.  I really mean it when I say you are all absolutely wonderful people.

I'll keep trying, so that I can return to you.


  1. I'm very sorry about your job situation, but I'm glad you haven't given up completely. I'm sure it'll all work out, you just have to keep an eye out! Stay confident, you can do it <3 In the meantime maybe take up some new hobbies, maybe?

    I'm also glad you haven't given up Gyaru. Usually when people are going through tough times the first thing they do is give up the thing they love the most. I am looking forward to see your new makeup techniques, and I do miss your blogging and awful lot! ;-;

  2. Welcome back from the dead! (sort of) ^^ It's unfortunate to hear that you still haven't gotten a job, but don't give up! There's still hope! Your job situation is bound to get better soon, if not eventually! I'm happy to hear that you are still into Gyaru as well.

    Good luck with everything! I wish to see your new makeup techniques!