Still Alive

Hello
Have you all been doing okay?

I miss blogging like crazy.  I mean, I really miss it.
But , I still haven't accomplished the goal I set out to, which was to find a new job.

Things got pretty low for me.  I'm the unfortunate type to place her self-worth on her status in the world.  For a while, I felt like I was nothing, since I wasn't contributing anything.  I stopped seeing my friends.  I stopped doing much of anything, really.  I had to force myself to eat on a normal basis, because I pretty much lost my appetite entirely.  I only left my room when I had to.

I still feel pretty down about my situation, but I've got no choice but to keep trying anyway.  Nothing will change if I just give up, after all.


In the meantime, I've never taken my eyes off of the Gyaru style.  I still love Hime-kei as much as I did before (which was a lot, lol), and I'm still interested in branching to Rokku-kei as well.  I've also started looking at the sweet styles that Satomi and Okarie are known for, as I would also like a style that I can wear on a daily basis at a future job.  I've found lots of new websites I hope to buy from, like Rojita and Ank Rouge.  I think my clothing coordinate skills have improved greatly, as I can see the potential in many pieces of clothing that I formerly could only see in the way it was displayed.  I haven't done much in the way of Gyaru makeup (especially since I have no reason to wear it if I'm not wearing anything fashionable), but I've found a good way to do nude makeup and can even do it in 20 minutes, when formerly, it would have taken me an hour.  I think I've gotten the hang of contouring, though I won't know until I come back and can show others.  And ultimately, I've realized that I don't care whether it's wild or tame, the old style or the new, I just really like the Gyaru style in general.  I hope I can return soon, so I can work on my style and learn from others.  It's not nearly enough to say I've probably gotten better.  I want to show you.


Until then, I will continue to look for a job and I will continue my hiatus here, as much as I really wish I could return.  My goal for this blog was to be a personal and a fashion blog, however.  I'm missing one of those things.


I really want to thank everyone who is sticking around, even though I'm not here.  I did read everyone's comments to my previous post, and I truly appreciate the well wishings that were sent.  I really mean it when I say you are all absolutely wonderful people.

I'll keep trying, so that I can return to you.