Who wears short shorts?

I guess I do! Went back to Old Navy, and this time, they had the shorts I wanted in my color ^_^ Size 0, though I'm actually a little more towards the size 1 (but they don't carry even numbers at ON), but once they go on, they still fit like a glove (and besides, size 2 is way too loose on me, so I was going to fit into a 0 even if I had to rip something, lol) So yeah. My next endeavor is one of those bras that just sticks on. I don't know why, I guess because I'm tired of being such a weird size. And I have to learn how to do my own stuff. I saw a picture (Popteen or Egg or something) of a girl wearing these cute pastel pink nerdy style glasses that I loved. I have the perfect pair already, but of course, they're black. I have to spray paint them someday, hopefully with a nice metallic paint! Lol, I can do that next week, silly me. Not like there isn't a Menard's around the corner! What else can I make?

It's like day 5 or something of this weird curl in my hair! It doesn't matter if I wrap it up, don't wrap it up, what, it's still there! Thought I'd throw that out there.

I think I really want to get a degree in fashion design. But I wonder if I can actually go through with it. I know I should take all of the basic classes at a cheaper school. And I probably have to take sewing classes. Again, I know how to sew, and I can even go as far as to figure out how to take any garment or drawing of a garment apart, but I don't really know how to tailor it for people to wear. I don't know, should I go for it? If I decide it's not more me, then I'll be even more in debt, AND I'll have to do this all by myself. I started thinking about all of this 3 weeks ago, while I was job searching and someone had posted a receptionist position for their fashion studio. I wanted to apply, but you had to have a degree in, well, fashion. I've always loved drawing the outfits of a character, almost as much as I loved creating their stories (but I have no drive to ever finish my stories, so writing is out of the question, lol).... I don't know, I don't want to make a costly mistake like I did with ILIAS.... I try to work on my indecisiveness, but this is major! My mom and her husband Glenn says I should even give it a try. *sigh* I don't know.

And besides, who would wear my crazy outfits?? Lol, just eccentric people like me. How many of those people exist anyway?

I promised myself last year that I would take more chances and follow my dreams. But.... *sigh* I have dreams of owning a nice online shop. I can make all of the weird clothing I like, for me, for others, and for dolls too. I shouldn't leave it a dream. I don't want to regret that I didn't try when I'm older. Alright, I'll save up for that sewing class from forever ago, and we'll see where I'm at then!


This choice eased my stress just slightly ^^ I know, because it's not so hard to breathe now.

Also, shorts!

~Lots of Love~

Homes

*Sob sob* I should have bought this at the Sanrio store when I had the chance! Now I can't find it anywhere....

Anyway, my current hobby is going to my favorite online shops, putting everything I like in my 'shopping cart', and going all the way up to the next to last step, the one right before I have to make a payment (I choose Paypal, so there's no way I'll accidentally buy, it'll ask me if I want to). I know, it's so pathetic.... I pretend like I've got money to blow around, just to see what I would like and how much I could be spending at this particular store.

Lately, I've been looking at townhomes. Well, originally, I was looking at apartments, but while I was looking at a review of a place I was interested in, someone had mentioned how for the same amount as they had paid for monthly rent, they were paying for a 4 bedroom, 2.5 bathroom, 2 floor house. It got me thinking, if that's the case, I should be looking at condos and whatnot. In the end, I like the idea of a townhome. I get a house, but I don't have to shovel snow or mow the lawn ^^ I can get a roommate, rent will be pretty low.... If I can get a decent paying job as well.... In the end, it keeps me from panicking, since I just travel to my own world where I have my own place and no one's there to take advantage of me. No one calling me out of my room just to tell me trivial things. No one going on about how it's her house and only her house, and then turning around and asking why I'm not doing things to help out around 'our' house.

No more feeling like it's not my home. I'm just a visitor....


Lighter note! Yesterday, a co-worker called off, so I got to stay at work longer. I got to work with Jake all day~! I swear, one day I'll make a move.... But he's just now warming up to me! I don't want to freak him out by being too forward. That's always my problem ;_; I mean, I'm already a cougar for liking him. I don't even know how old he thinks I am.... Probably thinks I'm like 20.

~Lots of Love~

More work!

I had a strange dream, where I was going back to school, and there was this guy that everyone else made fun of. But I was nice to him, and I guess that meant something to him. Well, one day, he snapped and started killing everyone one by one. There were 5 people left excluding me, and as he killed one more person, he told me to leave and never look back. I asked him what to do, and he told me that today, he was God. Then he pushed me out the door and locked behind him. It went forward a few decades, and they had completely covered up the wall. Some girls were going to class, and one of them was telling the other about the guy who killed everyone and that his ghost was trapped behind that wall.

How crazy was that dream?

Anyway, lately I've been getting into this show called Las Vegas. I used to ignore it when it originally aired years ago on NBC. I started watching it Monday because a show I was looking for wasn't on, and nothing else I wanted to see was on. Something funny was happening (can't remember what) so I just kept watching. It's pretty good! I thought it would be all serious like all of those cop and doctor dramas, but it's hilarious! And I get to watch 2 1 hour episodes back to back. I've got 5 years of shows to slowly catch up with ^^

Well, I've got work again tonight, with my first day off since Sunday on Thursday. I continue to search for a new job, waaaah! It's such a nice warm day, I bet Thursday it'll be really cold and muddy, and I'll cry! I want to go short shopping already!

I've been forgetting to end with this because it's been so long.
~Lots of Love~


Edit: I entered this drawing on Soom, the site where I got my ball joint dolls, and I just found out today that I won the 4th place prize!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! Granted, I only won $5 in store credit, but I never win things from major sites. In fact, last thing I won was in 4th grade, when I got 2nd place in a spelling bee. In fact, as I clicked on the link to the list of winners, I was just scrolling down, totally preparing to have to try again next time, and there my screen name was! It gives me just a little boost in hope for my future ^_^ Better start bookmarking furniture for my future new house XDDD

Fire, Fog, and Frilly things

Want to know what happened at my first midnight opening?

Well!
There was a fire over at the Portillo's across from us. The sky filled with smoke, it was weird. But then fog rolled in, seriously. So the fog caught the smoke and kept it in there air. It smelled like dust for hours! Our midnight was a success, though rather small, except some idiot called at 12:10 when everyone had already left. He called to ask if we could stay open so he could get there. Well, he got here.... And made us stay open an extra 10 minutes longer so he could cancel a reserve and trade in some games! Jerk!! He wasn't even that sincere when he thanked us after was the only one there, and he was keeping us open so late! I'll remember him forever! DDD8<

Anyway, made my wishlist for Rakuten again. My list is about $500 long, lol. I wish I could get someone out there to notice me for a new job, because I know I can't work at GameStop much longer. I like video games, but I can't afford any of the new systems, so I'm getting left behind when it comes to knowledge. I might try and transfer myself to some sort of boutique, though it would be awesome to work as a secretary, but I know they only look at college graduates.

It's the nicest day in history.... And I'm stuck at work! I should be going shorts shopping! Wahhhh!

Midnight

I've got a full night ahead of me, so I figured I'd post something here now. I've got a midnight for Final Fantasy XIII. It's my first midnight, so I'm going to dress up comfortably, probably not work too hard on my makeup and hair. No one's going to notice anyway once they've got the game in their hand, lol.

Anyway, I've been working on fashion collages lately, by collecting pictures of clothes, hair, and makeup techniques I like. I can't believe I'm doing this sort of stuff, and actually enjoying it! I've been going through my scans one by one. Time consuming, but soon they'll be in one area. I'm always forgetting which of my magazines I saw a particular style, and then I have to go through some several thousand pages ;_; Soon, I'm going to figure out how to arrange them so I can print them for that binder I posted about forever ago.

And how's this for kind of strange, I curled my hair 2 days ago, and it's still pretty curly now.

Okay, no more stalling! 9 hour work day on my feet. ;_____;

Will I ever keep up??

I'm back! I swear I didn't forget this place, I just kept... not coming here, lol. I would look at my poor neglected bookmarked page, and go "I don't have anything to say!"

Except!

I do have things to say!
Well, lately, I've been learning to style my hair and put on makeup. I guess I've mastered the smokey look, but I need more pallets. I bought a couple at a buy one, get one half off sale at Icing, in grays and neutrals, looking to get some pinks soon.

In the meantime, I bought some new games, the final NIS game for my DS collection and Mana Khemia 2 and Soul Nomad for the PS2, which I haven't even taken out of the box! I'm not being wasteful, I promise I'll play them eventually, but I have to get them now before I never see them again.

Anyway, take a gander at this lovely dress from Fanplusfriend. I got a ton of extra hours at work for next week, so I think I'll order it, plus a few things from Rakuten (Yes, I'm trying again.) Probably Rakuten first, Yumetenbo (DreamV) tends to sell out of the things I like most (like those pink fur ankle boots I loved *sob*)

Speaking of the job, our replacement boss Galen is finally moving back to his original store. We got a new boss, who I already like. Well, I've actually worked with him before, back when our original boss was still around *not* working. FINALLY, we have a boss who's not afraid to punish Dan for being completely lazy! He gave Dan an ultimatum: either he works like the rest of us and stops calling off for no reason, stops half-assing everything, and stops lying about why he's suddenly got to leave early (yes we've proved many times that he's lied), or in two weeks, he'll be finding himself a new job. The kid... or I guess I should start calling him Jake now, he's been absolutely amazing to work with, besides the obvious reasons. Lately, he's been increasingly more comfortable with me, and even makes silly comments around me. I try to read body language, see if he's into me, but I'm still no good at that, lol. But that's besides the point, we don't need Dan anymore. He's only good for speaking to our Spanish speaking customers, but he's always calling off and coming in really late/leaving early that his 'talents' are almost useless.

Recently, I bought a cookbook with college students in mind. No, I'm not going back to college... yet... but it's got a lot of simple recipes that don't involve a ton of time or ingredients. I've already made 3 different things from it. And while I was out buying ingredients one day, I bought some juices from Snapple. There was a particular juice with Noni fruit. It said on the bottle that it boosts your mood... and it's true! I tried it before I read the bottle, and for the whole day, I felt amazing and happy. It wasn't until a few hours after I finished drinking that I read the bottle and saw the description. Tried again recently, after I woke up feeling depressed. It really helped, I felt really nice all day ^^ What else... oh, and I found a gift card from Old Navy for $22. I can use it to buy some shorts. I went there a couple weeks ago, but the one pair of shorts I wanted, they didn't have in my size. I'll go back in a bit, it's getting warmer now, so there will be plenty of shorts for me to pick from.

I've discovered I'm a size 8 in shoes, and not 8 1/2, which means I'll have an easier time looking at Japanese shoes.

I'm in another doll layaway, this time for a Soom Chalco. I'm hoping to have him paid off by the end of April. After him, no more layaway, I have to promise myself that unless I get a good paying job.

I spend my days looking at townhomes I want to move into and furniture I want to buy for the future. My panic attacks stem not from work or money, but from my own grandma.

And I drew my first picture in months of inactivity.


That's my month. How was yours?
Oh, and a special thanks to my very first follower Terra. It made me smile to come back and find out that there's at least one person out there who wants to read my boring ramblings XD

Hairrrr!

Hello there!
So, it's been just a couple weeks shy of a year since my hair was cut. It's grown about 4 inches since. I'm so glad my hair likes to grow, lol. A couple of years, and I think it'll be back to where it was. But since I can do my own hair now, I don't have to worry about my hairdresser complaining, lol. Seriously, she would always complain, because it was so long, that she had to clear her schedule. I think once I get my tax refund, I'll get some layers and some bangs. Lol, I said that about my Christmas money, and look at me, layer-less and bang-less!

So anyway, it was another one of those do-nothing days. I joined this penpal site. I'm not really sure what to do, I don't really want to chat, I really want a penpal. I never get letters! I want to send someone a package! After that, I fell asleep, lol. Had a weird dream that someone was hitting on me, but when I looked at who was talking, I couldn't see anyone. I got all frustrated, because I felt it was pointless for me to have a dream like this. No, really, that's what I said in the dream! I was mad at the fact that it was a pointless dream!

FINALLY got to read the latest Ageha. Lots of how to tutorials, real ones, not "here's a picture of a hairstyle!" It's pretty informative, it shows you how to get a good spiral curl. I can't wait until my hair grows out so I can get ringlets. If I did it now, my hair would come out.... floofy. I used to have hair that did that, NEVER AGAIN!

I'm going to have some tea. Lavender?